That’s it. Just reminding you that I haven’t changed a bit. Nothing to see here.
I haven’t learned anything else to improve myself. Maybe I’m growing because I did get rid of some psychos in my life and didn’t pick them back up again. But other than that, Im not doing anything special. I literally looked at myself in the mirror the other day and said, “you’re not doing shit with your life are you”? That was the funniest thing I’d ever done. Usually it’s all pep talks about how awesome I am and how much better the world is with me here. But on this day I was like, nah, I got nothing.
I’ve had all these plans to get bitches to bow before me but I realized I’m still 2 piece chicken box Ericka. I don’t know how I’m supposed to do shit when I’m still eating Popeyes chicken thighs! I been doing that shit for 20 years! It’s the same shit! My tastes haven’t changed. I’m still eating chicken wings out the box on the way home! Im still getting my steering wheel all greased up! I haven’t grown up at all!
I decided to switch up my shit today at Taco HELL! I HATE THEIR ground Beef so I ate Steak tacos. I felt all special and shit. Im not broke but I just haven’t changed! Like I thought I’d be eating Caviar right now. But nope! Fish eggs suck dick! I tried it.
I don’t know if I just don’t have any class or what it is. I just don’t know if my tastes haven’t been refined yet. I can tell you one thing though I do not eat McDonald’s.
That’s another reason why I don’t date. Man I gotta pretend to be all uppity and NOT ORDER chicken wings! But deep down in my soul I want it! I can’t let no guy think I’m cheap! I can’t let a guy know he can have my nappy dugout for a two piece!
Im getting a little frustrated because I honestly can’t help it. You like what you like ya know?
I wish I could be like all I want is steak and lobster and crab legs but the truth is, bitch I like chicken. You ever just realize that you’re really NOT ALL THAT? lol
All I know is that I’m eating corn flakes tomorrow for breakfast. That’s all I got. If you’re like me and you’re an adult but you got no plan and you don’t know where the hell you’re going, join the club. It’s a whole lot of us out there that don’t know where we’re going at all.
Adults are just big kids and it’s ok if you don’t have all the answers. I’m working on the fact that I’m still sardine Ericka and Fried chicken Ericka.
Theres the person you want to be, and then there’s YOU.